Secret: adj; faithful or cautious in keeping confidential matters confidential.
A simple definition and yet a very difficult thing to master. It's been fun keeping this to ourselves but as time passes it gets harder to keep. To mix metaphors, Tim and I find ourselves starting to slip when in converstation with others and have to back peddle to cover our tracks. The hardest part is when I'm talking to my closest girlfriends. The moment I hear their voice on the phone I want to blurt it out without even thinking (read: "Hey Krist"-"I'M PREGNANT!"), and yet I restrain myself (yes, I can restrain myself) and keep my lips closed. I can't wait until that moment we are ready to tell everyone. I can see it now....finding the highest point in South Florida and shouting it as loudly as I can!!
It's easy for the time being because nothing is different on the outside. I'm still wearing my same clothes....holding onto size 2 until it gets tight. Thankfully it's not tight yet, that will be a huge eye-opener. Once in a while I feel bloated but it goes away. Side Note: Bloated is such a weird feeling. It feels like a balloon blowing up inside of you, and you just want to punch the clown making it happen. Like slow down Bozo, I'm in no mood to make blow up poodles today! That being said it'll be fun as time goes by and I'm having to find new clothes. You know me, I'm always up for a cute new outfit. I won't lie, I was totally looking at Maternity clothing last night online. You know a fresh little sundress here, a fun little tank top there....I didn't order any clothes, but I did order a new prenatal workout video to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I hope I like it.
I have 2 baby showers to go to this week. I'm so excited for my friends who are about to have babies. I'm so excited for my friends who have just found out they are expecting. What a stage of life we are in! I'm happy to be a part of it. I think when Tim and I put things on hold last year (actually about this time) I wasn't sure when I would be ready again. Part of it was hurt, part of it was frustration, a lot of it was confusion. I think being able to take a step back from certain situations makes it easier for Tim and I to concentrate on us, and what is right for our own little family. We went to the specialist in January and after one little shot we were rolling! It was easier than we thought. No months of trying, just "Hey, Dr. Gelman, this is what we want" and he helped make it happen. I love science! Really, Biology was my favorite subject! Tim and I were actually talking about dominant and recessive genes in the car today. How fun to think about what our little Dot is going to look like!?
Now we only have to keep this to ourselves for 19 more days....but I'm not counting or anything....